I'm kind of a shy person. I tend not to say much unless I'm sure I know what I'm talking about. I'm generally very cautious. I make lists. I plan. Let's face it, I'm also a control-freak. It scares me a bit to put myself out there in this blog for all the world to read. I worry too much about what other people think. But it's good for me to get out of my comfort zone sometimes. And today I gave myself a big push. I joined not one but two baking groups. One is quite large--The Daring Bakers. I've got some time to get used to the idea of that one, since I won't start until March. The other is much smaller and is focused on a single cookbook--Tuesdays with Dorie.
Part of me thinks that I must be crazy to commit myself to a weekly baking event. What if I don't have the time? What if I can't find anyone to eat this stuff every week? =) What if I don't have the equipment I need? What if I don't like the chosen recipe (which is almost guaranteed to be the case if it has coconut)? As you can see, sometimes I get so hung up on what ifs that it's hard to convince myself to do something. But eventually I get past it. I'll find the time--after all, the point is that I want something for to do for me, so I'm not always thinking of myself as somebody's mom or somebody's banker. I'm sure I can find someone to take baked goods off my hands if we can't eat them all here at home. I guess I get to go shopping, since I've already discovered that I need a 10-inch springform pan this week (it'll keep the 8 & 9 inch pans company). And hey, maybe I'll try sometime that I wouldn't have otherwise and actually like it.